Alright so the weather is lovely now a days and of course us females want to wear the cute spaghetti straps and bandeau tops and what not. But for women who have scars, large lumps that protrude, or uneven size breasts from surgeries, it's more difficult to gallivant around with no care in the world. We are human and being insecure about our breasts is normal...but also being who we are is normal and beautiful. Because what is normal? Normal to me is having large breasts with 16 tumors between both and wearing custom made bras and swimsuits. I will admit, I occasionally curse the small breasted, skinnier version of me I see running around without a care in the world (yes I am prematurely judging..but hush we all do it!), but I am learning to accept my body. It's always difficult especially when this disease, let only your body type, is not part of the popular dominant rhetoric and images ya know? How many celebrities do you see advocating for fibrocystic awareness? There's plenty of people I have to describe this disease to which is great because awareness is beautiful, but frustrating because I have to explain my history with this disease and emotional separation is never an option (so some tears awkwardly escape). Another example is during hook ups when a special someone feels lumps and makes a weird face before asking is that normal?...
When it comes down to it we all have our own struggles, whether it be a mental or physical disease. And these hot summer months are reminding me that my normal is beautiful. And so is yours.
xoxo
Lolo
